!~I My Me Mine~!

Ugh, i should stop watching romance movies, they just make me sad ><

I miss the happy feelings that come with dating D=

So ive now got my brothers guitar XD

Its been tuned by a family friend XD
Luckily none of the strings needed changing XD
Also i have his amp and pedal

So now all i need to do is learn to play <3

Really pissed off because my brother is taking MY XBox to uni with him.
 I lent it to him like 2 years ago because his broke, and last year i banned him from taking it with him because i didn’t want it broken.

So now i have to spend another year without it. FFS, i have games i want to play too!
And it was a present from our parents for Christmas a few years back
I don’t take his stuff ><

And i know im being moany and everything but i don’t see why if he’s willing to blow nearly £1000 of his student loan and overdraft on a load of shit cars he can’t just buy himself a new fucking xbox.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH

So um really awkward, but im using two keyboards RN!

I have the laptop keyboard for letters, and im using my Dads old USB keyboard for the top row of numbers and symbols! ><

After Christmas i’ll look at getting a new laptop, a Sony Vaio XD <3
So that’ll be nice XD
Til then i will suffer with a double keyboard XD;;; 

You guys should be proud of me!

Today i went to the gym! <3

Actually i did a lot of exercise today ><;; :-

20 mins on home crosstrainer
1 hour walk with dogs
1 hour (and a 20 mins ish?) at gym on bike, treadmill and crosstrainer
1 1/2 hour walk with Stace

Im really exhausted!
Tomorrow im going out in the morning, then i have work 2pm-6pm, so hopefully after work i can get in another 20 minutes on our crosstrainer at home and then go out for another walk with Stace :)

Be proud of meeeeeee 

I don’t really want to talk about it much, but it was a very lovely service~

I was lucky enough to go to all 3 parts of the day, the hearse going through our street (we were all gathered at her home which is just down the road from me), then the funeral at the crem, and finally the wake in the village hall.
Unfortunately i was much to shy to really talk to anyone but my dad, but i was brave enough to at least shake the hand of the guy that did the service, and i hugged Steve (widower) twice~

I cried a lot and i had my bear with me (given to me by Reica, may she rest in peace)~
Apparently people at the wake liked my bear (so im told, i barely spoke to them - one lady asked me if my bear was hungry when i was getting a sandwich ^^;; )

But yes,

RIP Reica
I love you so much 

I finally decided what to wear to the funeral tomorrow

Its non black so i had to think really hard

But i think my floral dress should be fine
I’ll have to wear my black lace skirt underneath because its short, but it should be fine, better than wearing black leggings anyway

My shoes will also have to be black because i only have one pair of decent ‘smart’ shoes :/

But yeaaaah, s’all in the washing machine now <3

Do you guys think its okay if i take my bear tomorrow?
She gave it to me as a present on my 19th birthday and it’d be nice to have something to cuddle for support whilst im there ;^; 

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Yaaaaay i have a doctors note!!

Because my ankle has hurt a lot for the past couple of weeks so i spoke to the doctor and she says its achilles tendinitis (repetitive strain injury),  so i have a note to wear trainers at work for a while until it settles down <3

Out of the £400 i got paid on the 28th June, i have £10 remaining ;^;

I just had to fork out £65 for an eye test and glasses (to be worn only when using the computer »)
I had to pay like £16 for my prescriptions
£250 went towards rent, phone and other bills…
I bought a hoodie for £20 ;^;
And i had to buy some other stuff too

But i really did not factor buying glasses into this months budget

And i cant get any help paying for any of my medical expenses because it goes by household income and not individual income ;^; 

/ragequit/